The last few years have brought many lessons. Some have been awesome and have helped immensely. Some experiences have been downright awful. The strange thing is the really bad experiences have taught me more about life than the good ones could ever have done. I have had to face my own internal demons and fight them tooth and nail. I’m proud to say I have beaten down every challenge I have faced. There have been some injuries, some collateral damage in the process but ultimately I learned to find peace.
It’s not an easy place to find and for many who struggle day to day the thought of a simple balanced life can seem like a pipe dream that is simply unattainable. I found a very straight forward way to silence my insecurities and demons for good. I just stopped caring about them. I stopped caring what the wider world expected from me and I stopped wondering if I was living up to the lofty expectations that I had set for myself. You see, it did not matter how much money I made or how well I was regarded in my industry I could not find what I was looking for.
Well, I was looking in the wrong place. I was looking to others to validate my life, I was hoping for approval from people that had their own crap to deal with and despite what I thought they should be saying about me they were just trying to survive their own life.
I know now that to be truly happy you have to look inward and not out. You have to find the things that make you smile. Life is not about putting these things off and waiting until the time is right. Life is not about going against your gut instincts because others think differently. Life is about doing all the things you want to do and making sure that every experience you crave is fulfilled.
You only need to live by one rule, your actions should never intentionally harm or hurt others because the burdens they carry may be massive and they don’t need you to make their life any harder than what it already is.
In the last twelve months I have crammed more life into my days than what I have in the last 10 years. If I wanted to do something, I just did it. I have jumped out of planes; travelled by car through the United States, wandered through Central Park, been to a Broadway play, took the kids to a surprise week at Queensland’s theme parks, worked in the school canteen, helped out in the school fundraising and I have just hung out with my kids doing things they want to do. I swim every day, I just recently got my green belt and after a 15 year hiatus I have taken up competitive football again. Small things make my day and I don’t need every one to care about my stuff and I don’t give a toss whether anyone agrees with what I do.
I love my life and I am so freaking excited about the future and that in itself is amazing because it wasn’t always that way.
Let go, be free and live your life.
29th April, 2014